L a s t S u m m e r;

Saturday, March 31, 2007

boredom

You Are a Night Person

For you, there's nothing worse than having to get up and moving early.In fact, you probably don't hit your peak until well after the sun has set.So if your struggling to make it on a normal schedule, realize it's not your fault.You just weren't meant to do anything during the day!

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouamorningpersonornightpersonquiz/">Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?

Your Birthdate: October 18

For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over.In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with.You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending!
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1
You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanforyourlovelifequiz/">What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Your Job Satisfaction Level: 52%

Your job is about average. There are some parts you really enjoy, and some parts that stress you out.It's possible that you need a small change. Maybe you should switch companies or positions.It's also possible that you're simply burned out. No job is perfect, even a great one.Give yourself a personal day to think about your career goals - and if your current job is helping you achieve them.

http://www.blogthings.com/shouldyougetanewjobquiz/">Should You Get a New Job?

You Are 12% Paranoid Schizophrenic

You're so far from paranoid schizophrenic...you probably found this quiz to be quite amusing.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouaparanoidschizophrenicquiz/">Are You A Paranoid Schizophrenic?

You Should Be A Virgo

What's good about you: you have a quiet determination and aren't swayed by emotions
What's bad about you: you are an insane perfectionist and easily find faults in others
In love: you are obsessed with making your partner happy
In friendship, you're: helpful and giving - eager to be a true friend
Your ideal job: poet, flight attendant, or natural healer
Your sense of fashion: casual, upscale, revealing, conservative - you look good in all of it
You like to pig out on: a well prepared five course meal

http://www.blogthings.com/whatsignshouldyoubequiz/">What Sign Should You Be?

You Are Mostly Secure

In general, you feel confident and together.But the wrong thing can happen, and all of a sudden, you're not feeling so secure.Luckily, your insecurities don't last long... at least, not usually.So the next time you're feeling insecure, try to snap out of it - and remember the confident woman you are!

http://ynr.blogthings.com/areyouinsecurequiz/">Are You Insecure?

Guys Think You're Easy to Be With... But Not Easy

You're definitely a flirt - and a good one.But you also know that you shouldn't make a move on any cute guy who passes by.You save your seductive moves for someone who already knows the real you.That way, your sex appeal is just part of the whole package.

http://ynr.blogthings.com/areyoueasyquiz/">Are You Easy?

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

http://ynr.blogthings.com/areyouagirlorawomanquiz/">Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

Your Life Revolves Around Yourself

There's no chance that you're going to let your guy control you.
You've got your own thing going on - and he's lucky to be a part of it.
And even though he might pressure you to consider his feelings a little more...
He's secretly into how independent you really are.

Does Your World Revolve Around Your Guy?

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!
Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.
If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.
You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

xx signed off at 2:02 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

alone

been home by myself for about three nights now. abt the number of nights that mum didn't come back.

silence seem to surround me and somehow i fell into this pattern of sleeping, sleeping and sleeping. maybe, i can sleep away this silence. maybe i will fall into a deep, eternal sleep. not that anyone will find out anyway right?

i need to get out of here, want to get out of here. but where do i go? to whom? i realized there is no place and no one for me to turn to. and the silence grows.

somehow tears started to fall. i hate family issues. they have haunted me forever, isn't it long and tiring enough? how do i call ppl up and say "hey i don't want to be alone now, can i borrow some of your time?" or "hey my mum is sleeping at the house of some guy she'd known for less than a month and no one's ever home anymore. can you lend me some sanity?"

doesn't make any sense. plus i just cannot seem to make myself do the assignment. at least, i can talk to myself here.

im trying to be strong. but i just cant help feeling more and more alone. mum even quit her job. bro is studying. what do we do?

and i am so tempted to... draw.

xx signed off at 4:06 PM