Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe. I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
i've always believed that to love someone, it's simply to let that someone be happy. if he were to fly, be proud of how high he can fly.
since when did love become a tiresome tug-of-war, a test of patience to see who will break first under the pressure? doesn't it hurt to know that you are the very one who took the smile off my face?
and i am at my breaking point. those incessant questions, neverending missed calls, screams and accusations, they have pushed me so far it all seems surreal. and i can't even catch my breath. is this really love?
i thought love was just a simply theory of giving and of happiness. but why does it always have to get so ugly? i'm tired, sick and tired of all the shit you throw at me and the emotional blackmail you always always use on me. and why are you not letting me go when you are saying you wish me the best?
i need someone who trusts me and is happy because i am happy. i need to have my friends and a life apart from love. i want to be able to decide solely for myself whether i wanna go out or not, and not decide because i am forced to do so. and i hate curfews.
i juz need some peace and space to breath. is that really so hard to understand?
1. i still hv no idea hw to get de picture to de left side.
2. that's not the point.
The Point:
what if one day you found out someone you thought you knew turned out to be drastically different? n that someone did something so dreadfully unimaginable that you were in shock for 1 day?
disappointment is quite an understatement really, after all that he has been to me. no matter what, he has given me fond memories and great many smiles. yeah.. and taught me to laugh again when i forgot how to laugh anymore. i haven't laughed so much for so long :)
but what's done cannot be undone, and what's gone will never return.
i miss him and his constant presence in my life.. even though i still cant really believe he did that.
in denial as usual maybe. but i prefer to remember the good days and his sunshine smile.
bye le kev... perhaps one day down the road, we can be friends again...
xx signed off at 4:38 AM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
trying to change de sight of this
i have finally decided to STOP PROCRASTINATING (ash u see this? :p) and change to boring boring outlook of my blog... n update.
3hrs later at 3am, on de verge of throwing whatever's available at my laptop, i still can't centralise the heading!!!
CAN SOMEONE KINDLY TEACH ME HOW TO USE THIS FRIGGING CSS?!?!
*screams in frustration*
anyway, until my heavenly help appears.. kindly bear with the weird heading and be proud that i have managed to come thus far :p