Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe. I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
the fact is, i dont wish to face reality. am trying hard to numb all feelings... but somehow tears fall so easily, esp each night.
i remembered the beginning, and dont wish to face the end. perhaps i dont understand love, maybe i never really knew how to love.
i feel colder each day... not sure if it is becoz i'm trying to hard to get used to your absence or trying too hard not to care.
honestly, i dont wish to feel anything. i dont need happiness, dont need sweet words, dont need a shoulder to lean on anymore... i dont want anything. i juz want to stop crying.
but i remember all the words u once told me, how safe u made me feel. you always told me to stop dreaming, but you never knew it was you who gave me dreams.
i watched as u walk further away... going after your very own dreams... and your world slowly excluded my presence. i remember all the painful words that hurt me... i remember how i felt like i couldnt breathe.
i'd wanted you to believe in love... to heal the pain u once seemed so burdened with. i never counted on losing my faith in love... or possible happiness. becoz it was you who taught me happiness was possible... and you who took them all away.
you once told me to always remain who i am... for thats de girl u loved. but it is you who tried so hard to change me now.
i may be deep in denial, but i can feel my heart slowly close. each day it hurt a little less... each day i learnt to take another step back. i'm tired.. really tired. it was a long journey.
perhaps one day when u have all de status n money that u tried so hard to get... u'll finally look back on what u threw away.
i'm lost... and honestly do not want to talk abt it. i hate questions and questioning looks. how can i explain myself when i dont even have de answers?
